Here it is. My first truly emo post!

Every year, come January, I do an evaluation of my previous year. What happened that was good for me? Did I build on it? What happened that was bad? Did I learn from it? Did I accomplish some of my short term goals? Did I progress towards my long term goals? Did some new goals arise that I need to include in the project? Yes I really do ask myself all these questions and try to remain fair in my answers. Then I take action. I make changes. Changes in my friendships, relationships, my attitudes and perceptions. I can always come up with a plan that will get me what it is I feel I need the most. This time, it was a little harder.

I feel starved for meaningfulness. A lot of people would like to have a meaningful life. I have no such noble ambition. I would just like to live a little something that's meaningful, every day. The problem is that I cannot define 'something meaningful.' I just know it is when I feel it, not a moment before. I feel this warmth build up from within and I know that if my life were to end right that second, I would die smiling. I want something like that, every day. I make sure none of my days are meaningless, I learn something new every day, but what I would like is just that special moment that gives the day its glorious glow. That's a great plan but the means to get there are a little abstract at this point. Time will tell.